WHY?

I don't understand why some people have kids? If you don't want them let someone else take care of them. If your only going to inflict pain why do you keep them
It is wrong for you to breed and if you can't control yourself someone else should. 
If I had an animal that ate it's babies then I wouldn't let it have anymore.  The brutal truth is you are selfish, worthless pieces of crap. Stop thinking of just yourself and give up your first child for adoption then go get yourself fixed.
God will judge those who bring harm to innocent children harshly.  If you don't believe there is a Hell read your Bible, go to church, do whatever it takes but stop hurting people.